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[Behind Your Smile]
I can't let Yi Ting see Lin Man.
You'll need to find a good piece of land like Healthy Farm.
Otherwise Yi Ting might find out that I asked Lin Man to get his land.
Thank you for helping me get back from the Philippines.
Su Zhong Wen's in Taiwan.
Go and see if you can find out why he came back to Taiwan.
- Why did you come back to Taiwan? - To help a friend.
It's the evidence of all the things that he's done over the years.
What if you ruin our relationship by being so nice to Lei Xin Yu?
She's just one of my chess pieces for finding Lin Man.
There's someone else.
The other person who destroyed Lei Sheng.
I've been trying very hard to make you feel that you're not lonely.
If he never lets you into his world, I'm worried that you'll go crazy.
Why do you have my puzzle?
Any explanation will do, I'll listen.
If you can't look after her, you should let me have her.
I'll treasure her and never hurt her.
Episode 13
You might think you can give yourself a deadline to walk away from her.
But after you do that, you'll think about her every single day.
You'll wonder how she's doing.
Every time you think about her, you'll tell yourself that you've won.
That you've let go.
But actually you can't bear to walk away at all.
What are you doing here?
Even if Lei Xin Yu has gone far away one day
you still won't be able to walk away.
It's not hard for me to know how you really feel.
You might tell yourself a hundred times that you'll leave Lei Xin Yu.
But you'll definitely regret your decision one day.
Why didn't I have more fun as a teenager?
Why didn't I fall in love in my 20s and treasure what I had in my 30s?
When you turn 40 and 50, you'll just keep regretting everything.
If only you knew that Lei Xin Yu...
I like you!
Xin Yu, you want to know about my family?
The lady that you call "Auntie" is actually my mom.
The farm owner who died with regret was my dad.
Healthy Farm was my old home.
If you want to share my feelings
that's just a taste of what's to come.
The reason that your mom's company collapsed
and that you suddenly lost your home
is all because of me.
Do you still want to share my feelings now?
Now...
I want you to know everything about me.
Do you still want that?
Why didn't you knock on the door after you got here?
I've already sent the location and number of the locker to your phone.
Here's the key.
It has everything about my past in there.
You can tell me your decision after you have a look at it.
- Hello? - Hi, I can't find Mom.
I've already looked everywhere on the farm.
Don't panic.
Let me think about where she might be.
By the way, once you find her
make sure you don't let her walk on to the road by herself.
Why?
Mom doesn't know anyone outside of the farm.
Where could she have gone?
- Hi, Xiao Mao. - Xin Yu, did my mom come to see you?
Auntie?
Auntie doesn't know where I live.
Oh yeah, I forgot.
- I'm sorry, I must be too anxious. - What happened?
My mom's gone missing.
Where's her phone book?
I wonder if she suddenly wanted to see an old friend.
Where is it?
Could she have...
gone back to the old farm?
- Did you find Mom? - No.
So I have another son, Da Mao?
That means Da Mao is Xiao Mao's...
Mom!
Mom, watch out! Step aside...
I'm sorry...
Dad!
Ling!
I'm sorry...
Mom... are you in shock?
Are you okay?
I saw it.
What did you see?
On the day that your dad died...
I saw how he got out of the car.
I also saw how he got hit by the truck.
I saw everything.
Stop pretending to be my counselor.
You have no idea what I saw.
It's all your fault.
I saw your dad apologizing to you.
Why did he have to apologize to you?
So obviously it's your fault.
Why did he have to apologize to you?
You told him to borrow money from the loan shark.
If you hadn't told him to do that
he wouldn't have died.
It's your fault.
It's all your fault.
It's your fault.
Xiao Mao, have you found Auntie?
He's not in here.
Why is this here?
It's Boss's handwriting.
Mom, Da Mao, and Xiao Mao.
Da Mao?
Xiao Mao never eats the things that I cook.
He only eats unhealthy junk food.
It's your favorite.
You're having instant noodles for dinner?
- Yes. - That's so unhealthy--
But it doesn't waste time.
His handwriting is just as beautiful as his dad's.
This must be the farm owner's handwriting, right?
- How did you know? - It's still just as ugly.
Boss, you have really nice handwriting.
That means Auntie is Boss's mom.
Boss is Da Mao.
But...
how come Auntie always mistaken Da Mao for Xiao Mao
whenever she talks about Da Mao?
What's wrong with Auntie?
Also, how come nobody at the farm ever talks about Boss?
It's Boss.
Stop following us.
Just go.
What other nasty things do you want me to say to you?
Not only have you made your dad lose his life
now you want to torture me?
I already said I don't want to see you again.
The sight of you reminds me of the time when I watched your dad die.
What about me?
Why did I tell Dad to borrow money from the loan shark?
You were hospitalized and we went broke.
I was only 20 years old.
I didn't know what else I could do besides work on a farm.
That's why I said I didn't want to see you again.
Wouldn't it be great if we don't have to see each other anymore?
Where else can I go?
I already lost my dad.
The only time you remember me is when you hate me.
Perhaps I should think on the bright side.
At least...
At least there are still times that you remember me.
I don't hate you.
I won't hate you.
A mother will never hate her own child.
That's why I'm in so much pain.
The reason I'm in pain is because you're a wonderful child.
The reason I hate everything is because they've ruined my son's life.
I hate everything that's happened.
I wish I didn't remember any of it.
It's all my fault.
It's all because of my illness.
- I'm so-- - All right, that's enough.
It's not your problem and it's certainly not Mom's fault.
We wouldn't have lost our farm if it weren't for Lin Man.
Dad wouldn't have had to sell our farm because of the poisonous milk.
We wouldn't have gone broke and Mom wouldn't have had heart disease.
You also wouldn't have asked Dad to borrow money from a loan shark.
None of this would have happened if it weren't for Lin Man.
Why do we have to pay for it?
Why do we have to hate and blame each other for it?
Can we stop letting that woman affect our lives?
You...
- Mom. - Mom...
You can do it.
It's been a long time since you've taken care of her.
So why did you come here?
I came after I got your call.
I got really worried about Auntie.
That photo on the desk.
Who's Da Mao?
It's Yi Ting.
I have a headache.
- Mom. - Xiao Mao.
- Are you okay? - Xiao Mao.
Xiao Mao.
Who... who is he?
Why does seeing him make me so upset?
I have a really bad headache.
Tell him to go away...
Why does seeing him make me so upset?
Tell him to go away, my head's killing me.
Tell him to go away, Xiao Mao.
Mom.
If it's going to make your life easier
then it's probably best for you to forget everything.
Just let me remember the things that are supposed to be remembered.
The reason Boss left the farm was because of Mom.
Everyone at the farm was mistaken about him.
Even his mother has forgotten about him.
Should I tell him that I left a message to meet up with Mom?
Boss.
A locker key?
Do I really have to take it?
She's back.
Xin Yu.
Can you help me practice for a role that I've recently taken on?
My partner plays a blind person, so close your eyes.
You really trust me, don't you?
Of course I trust you.
So... do I have to say anything?
You can talk about the weather.
You can talk about anything.
The weather's really nice today.
So normally I'd also be in a really good mood.
But I couldn't sleep at all last night.
Why couldn't you sleep?
Because I went somewhere with Boss.
Now lift up your arms.
Keep going.
Then I finally discovered...
that Boss' mom is actually the female farm owner.
Why are you crying?
There's a reason why Boss didn't want to tell me anything about his family.
My existence actually causes a lot of pain for him.
No.
You don't cause him pain.
You're...
You're the key to changing him into a better person.
You're his only comfort, you're...
the one he likes.
Turn around for me.
Let's play a game of trust.
Here's the rule of the game.
Even though one of us is in complete darkness
you must trust the other person.
The other person must do whatever it takes to protect her partner.
I'm going to step back now.
You can fall back on the count of three.
One, two, three.
Was that fun?
Jian Xiao Yue.
I still think that
Boss has only become such a contradictory person because of me.
Trust me.
We all get a little contradictory at times.
Chairman Hong, our first test results were really impressive.
We have approval to proceed with clinical trials on humans.
So what do you think, Chairman Hong?
Let me think about it.
Chairman Hong, please trust me.
The return on your investment will be huge once our experiment is successful.
I do trust you.
I also realize you're one of Dr. Murray's top students, an expert in glycoproteins.
But the investment fund required for new medicine is too expensive.
You should probably ask someone else.
Okay, I understand.
Chairman Hong, I'll let you play golf.
Dr. Murray?
Excuse me.
Can I ask you something?
I happen to have heard your conversation just now.
I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but you're trying to raise investment funds, right?
What a coincidence.
I know of a few investors who're looking for investment projects.
Perhaps we can chat about it some time.
[Boss...]
[Boss, are you okay?]
Boss, instant noodle rice dumplings are your favorite, right?
I've already tried it.
I can guarantee that it's really good.
Boss, please enjoy.
Good luck at work but don't stay up too late.
Boss, I'm sorry that I didn't care about your feelings.
It must be really painful for you to have to see me every day, right?
Boss, are you okay?
If you ever feel sad, you can come and talk to me.
Boss, don't worry about me.
If you don't want to see me for a while...
What's the matter?
I feel like I'm the most useless person in the world.
Come here, sit down.
Put a hundred dollars on the table.
Very good.
Now that you've paid your fee, I'll listen to you.
Go on.
I wanted to see how he was doing but I couldn't get myself to go inside.
- Where? - His office.
I'm finding it hard to face Boss.
A few days ago, I was still very hopeful about our future.
Because he gave me...
a key.
What key?
Boss gave it to me.
He said it would tell me about his past.
Where is it? I'll look in my room.
It's Xin Yu's phone.
Zhao Yi Ting, did you shut yourself out again?
Since you'd already given Lei Xin Yu the key, why did you take it back?
Are you going to give up on Lei Xin Yu?
- Did you look at what's inside? - Is it something that I can't see?
Does that mean everyone can know how you feel except for Lei Xin Yu?
She means the most to you yet you don't want her to know you.
Zhao Yi Ting, you're such a smart idiot.
Every day she wants to see you but she's too afraid to get close to you.
Why do you do this every time?
Did I ask for an update on her?
You asked me to keep an eye on her.
I thought you'd reward me for my hard work.
Don't challenge my temper.
Why can't you just tell Lei Xin Yu the truth?
I'm sure she'll understand.
She won't understand.
Hatred is something that Lei Xin Yu will never understand.
It's my resentment for Lin Man that's helped me get this far.
For the past 12 years, this has been my goal in life.
If even I decide to give up
then my dad would be totally alone.
You're right.
It's too bad that you met Lei Xin Yu.
Yeah.
Ever since the day when I saw Lei Xin Yu for the first time
I knew I was in for some bad luck.
Watch out!
My mommy's here.
I thought my luck would change for the better.
I'm sorry, can you let me stay in your car?
But God never seems to be on my side.
Please help me.
I hate myself for being so weak.
I gave myself all kinds of excuses to get close to her.
Are you sure you want to do this? She's Lin Man's daughter.
Have you ever heard, "The North Wind And The Sun"?
Come to think of it now...
I'm responsible for causing half of my bad luck.
I didn't work hard enough.
Whenever she's in trouble, I want to help her right away.
Whenever I see the pureness in her eyes...
I feel so useless.
My 12 years of resentment suddenly seemed really stupid.
I know how you feel.
Her trust in me always makes me feel really awkward.
I know how to deal with cunning and evil people.
But I don't know what to do with her at all.
So the only option is to be cruel.
I'll do whatever I need to do and she'll go wherever she wants to go.
Is that why you gave yourself a deadline?
Until Lin Man finally appears
I guess I deserve to be loved once, right?
But you didn't expect to wake up from your dream that early.
Your mom's condition has woken you up, right?
I've been wanting to ask you why you picked me.
It's not because I like acting, is it?
Because we're the same kind of people who fight for justice.
We feel that this world is totally against us.
But as long as there's light ahead of us
we still do our best to move forward no matter how muddy our path is.
That means you'll never fall in love with someone who's just like you, right?
It's not easy to be with someone who knows you too well.
That's right.
You can't be with the person that you like.
But you're stuck with the same kind of people and you don't like them.
But you know what?
You can't lie for the rest of you life.
If you tell one lie, you'll have to tell another lie.
You'll end up having to cover up for endless lies.
Once she finds out that you lied
all your sincerity and kindness will go down the drain.
All the things that you've done for her will become meaningless.
That's just a bit of advice from someone who's the same kind of person as you.
I'm actually quite nice, right?
I can't believe I actually told you how I feel when I couldn't even tell Shi Huan.
You're welcome.
I'm on standby 24 hours a day.
You still can't eat this, good boy.
Xiao Mao.
Xin Yu, what are you doing here?
Can you tell me where you put the Healthy Farm sign?
I can't believe you actually hid it here.
Yeah, the most obvious place is often the safest place.
I guess.
So what are you going to do with this sign?
Stop her!
- What's going on? - She wants to see Mom.
Lei Xin Yu, it's none of your business so stay out of it.
It is my business.
You, Boss, Yu Nan, and Uncle Tai have all suffered a lot.
Since it's my mom's fault, I should bear the responsibility for her.
- Pan Yu Nan, what are you doing? - I thought you wanted to fix it.
Perhaps you should let Lei Xin Yu give it a try.
But I'm worried that she'll get hurt.
Then you can try to protect her.
But at least you should let her try.
What? Is she really that fragile?
Does she break that easily?
Pan Yu Nan, you're so inconsiderate.
You'll probably be single for the rest of your life.
So what?
- Don't say anything. - Okay.
I won't tell anyone that you like Xiao Mao.
No, I don't.
Look at you, that's a good boy.
Here you go.
- I thought you wouldn't eat it. - Auntie.
Look, Auntie.
What is that?
I know.
You're the pretty girl who helped restore this sign for me.
You're not?
I still remember taking photos with you.
This was your favorite farm, wasn't it?
Yeah.
But in the end
a greedy woman came along and took it away from you, right?
Auntie, do you still remember who she was?
Do you still remember who that greedy woman was?
Lin Man.
I'm her daughter.
No, you're not.
You helped me fix up this sign.
You even took me to the salon.
- You're not-- - Auntie, I am.
I'm Lin Man's daughter.
I'm the daughter of the woman you hate the most.
So if there's anything that you should hate or forget
it should be me.
Not yourself or Da Mao.
Da Mao?
- Who's Da Mao? - He's your son.
How can he be my son?
My son is Xiao...
Let me warn you, Zhao Da Mao.
If you keep being so picky with your food
you'll have to clean up the cow poop for a whole month.
My son?
- Da Mao? - Da Mao's your son.
His name's Zhao Yi Ting.
He really loves you.
But he doesn't want to see you, in case seeing him makes you upset.
Auntie, I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to make you think about things that make you upset.
But...
I don't want to see Boss get so depressed again because of you.
Although he always hides his feelings deep in his heart
he still gets upset and hurt.
- Okay, that's enough. - Auntie.
If you want to blame someone
I'm right here.
You can do whatever you want.
Please don't hate yourself.
Please don't hate Boss.
Because it was actually my mom's fault.
Okay.
Go and ask your mom this.
What could have been so important to her that she had to do what she did?
Did she do it for money?
Money's the pettiest thing in the world.
There are a lot of poor people in the world.
If she was only after money
so that she could increase her bank account...
What gives her the right to destroy someone else's dream?
How could she ruin someone else's life and effort?
Here's another question for her.
She's also a mother herself.
After everything that she's done
can she actually stand in front of her children with her head held high?
She's turned her child into someone everyone hates.
Her child can never lift her head up again.
Does she actually regret what she's done?
My mom...
Don't ever mention your mom in front of me again.
You don't deserve to touch this sign.
Don't ever come here again.
If you do, I'll kick you out myself.
Mom.
Auntie.
It's okay if you don't forgive my mom.
But I really hope you can forgive yourself.
Are you okay?
Thank you.
Don't tell Boss about my conversation with Auntie.
I don't want to increase his burden.
Wouldn't it be great if we weren't that sensitive to other people's feelings?
Whenever I'm angry at Da Mao
I forgive him as soon as I think about his point of view.
Whether I really like her or not...
I've never felt sad about losing anyone.
You'd better go away...
- Auntie... - Go away!
Auntie, no...
Auntie, let me help you.
Lei Xin Yu, is my cooking really that bad?
Are you going to eat or not?
I'm sorry, I was just...
Lei Xin Yu, I hate it when you're so hesitant.
You're wondering if he hates your mom like everyone else at the farm, right?
Yes, he does.
But the point is he also fell in love with you because you really like him.
Also, you're wondering if it really hurts him whenever he sees you, right?
If that's it, then just go and ask him.
Don't tell me you can't even come up with an excuse to go and see him.
My goodness, do you actually know how to date someone?
Remember when you made him a lunch box?
Just pretend that you need the container back.
Xiao Yue, I love you.
- Come in. - Chairman.
We've confirmed that Su Zhong Wen's one of Dr. Murray's top students.
He was right about his medicine.
It's already been approved to begin the second phase
of clinical trials on humans.
Once it hits the market, the return on our investment will be unimaginable.
- But... - But what?
His family is close to Lin Man.
As far as I know, your family's actually quite close to Lin Man, right?
My mom and Auntie met at university.
Is there something wrong with that?
Let me explain.
Since you live overseas most of the time
you might not realize Lin Man's situation at the moment.
I saw the news so I know that Lei Sheng's in trouble right now.
I'm aware of that.
Okay, a lot of investors have taken huge losses because of Lei Sheng.
So she's got quite a bad reputation right now.
What does Auntie's reputation
have to do with me looking for investment funds in Taiwan?
Hang on.
So what you're trying to say is, because we're friends with Lin Man
and she used Lei Sheng to embezzle money
people might think that I'm also a fraud?
I get it.
Mr. Tang.
Although I spend most of my time doing research
I still realize that trust is the most important factor in doing business.
If you're not confident about my medicine
just tell me.
I'm extremely confident about my medicine.
As for the funding, I can try and look for someone else.
Thank you.
Mr. Su.
Academics certainly have quite a character of their own.
It's just my habit to be a bit more careful when doing business.
I just want to be safe.
I was just trying to know more about the background of my working partner.
I hope you don't mind.
Don't worry, I'm still very interested in your project.
Did you want to show me more information?
Let's continue.
Thank you.
Did he fall for it?
Just as you expected, he really tried to test me.
So I did what you said.
Tang An Sheng might be very smart and careful
but his biggest flaw is his greed.
He thinks he hit the jackpot with this new medicine project.
But he's made a huge mistake.
I'm going to make sure he loses everything.
Auntie.
Lei Sheng was really destroyed by them, right?
Of course.
Hopefully this will help you.
I also hope that Xin Yu's life can get back to normal soon.
Zhong Wen, thank you so much.
By the way, I thought you were going to meet up with Xin Yu.
Have you seen her yet?
Is she well?
I'm really worried about her.
Don't worry, Auntie, I'll try and meet up with her again.
Tang An Sheng will definitely find a partner to take on this project.
He always finds himself a scapegoat.
Just like me.
Just you wait.
Is the restaurant closed today?
They're sorting something out.
Have a seat.
[New Medicine Investment Project]
- What is it? - Take a look.
[Su Zhong Wen]
If my new medicine passes the test it'll definitely become the bestseller.
So Su Zhong Wen also approached Chairman Tang with the same project.
[Su Zhong Wen]
So Su Zhong Wen also approached Chairman Tang with the same project.
Think about it.
I think this biotech project will become quite a huge success.
I know that Mojin is looking at investing in biotech companies.
If I let Mojin handle this project
it should save this new company a lot of time in becoming a listed company.
Why are you suddenly so interested in the biotech industry?
The property market's not doing very well so construction projects are on hiatus.
That's why I want to look for other alternative investment projects.
If you're interested, you can have this project.
Just leave a portion of shares for Tang Dynasty to become a shareholder.
Although I can't become your father-in-law
we still used to be working partners.
What do you think?
Hey!
Calm down, let's talk about this.
Talk? What kind of boss are you?
Why didn't you tell us that you closed down the restaurant?
How can you just dump us like that?
I'm not going until I get my pay.
- Hey-- - We can talk this out.
Calm down.
Okay, Mr. Zhao, I'll do you a favor today.
But I'll definitely be back.
Thank you.
Yi Ting, thank you.
Chairman Tang.
I'll have to take a look at the information.
- I'll let you know later. - Okay.
I'll wait for your good news.
I'm going.
Did you see that we were having a meeting?
Couldn't you even handle a shutdown properly?
He got so mad that he wouldn't listen to me.
That's why women can never manage a business.
But even if my manager used my restaurant to defraud our suppliers
is it really necessary to close down the restaurant?
Do you think you can keep operating if your suppliers come and cause trouble?
The restaurant's not registered in your name.
You should just close it down while you still can.
We can open up another restaurant somewhere else if you want to.
Dad, have you thought about my feelings?
I've spent a lot of time and effort on this restaurant.
How can you be so cruel to your daughter?
Don't be unreasonable.
Then what about Uncle Qing?
He's worked for you for years.
Didn't you see the news about him?
I did.
Then why didn't you say anything?
Don't you want to find out what happened to him?
He didn't go home.
Don't you want to know who did that to him?
Do I have to tell you every single one of my thoughts?
That's not what I mean.
It's just that you're far too calm about it.
I also have emotions.
I just don't like to express my sadness.
I'll take care of Tai Qing.
Just mind your own business.
Did you know that Uncle Qing's more like my dad than you are?
Even though you know that I'm upset
you still didn't try to comfort me.
Boss.
What are you doing here?
I came to pick up my container.
Boss, how come you look a bit weird.
Are you sick? You look really tired.
I've been working really late.
What happened to your hand?
Nothing.
That's good.
Boss.
Actually I've arranged to meet up with my mom.
So I want to know how you feel about my mom.
Can you tell me?
What do you want to hear?
Everything.
I want to know how you truly feel.
Sometimes the truth can be very ugly and scary.
It's okay, I'm not scared.
I want to know how you really feel.
I want Lin Man to pay for what she did to us.
She should get on her knees and apologize to my parents and everyone at the farm.
I want her to tell the whole world
that Healthy Farm had nothing to do with the poisonous milk.
That she was the one who was behind it all.
I want Lin Man to be locked up in jail for the rest of her life.
But after you showed up, everything just changed.
Ever since the first day I saw you
I knew I must have been in luck.
Come to think of it now
a person can't always be so lucky.
But every time you're in trouble, I want to jump in and help you.
When you look at me with those innocent eyes...
I feel...
I feel as if I can let everything go.
I'm sorry.
I didn't mean to make your life so contradictory.
But it's all good now.
Everything's okay, right?
It's all good.
Then, can I hug you?
Boss.
I'm sorry.
Thank you.
The truth is the same as a lie.
A lie is the same as the truth.
My daughter's innocent.
If you think you can take revenge on me by working with Tang An Sheng
your dad will never rest in peace.
So it was all just a show.
Did you know I've been waiting for you to tell the truth?
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